Anonymity

For a big portion of my life I've lived in anonymity.

Anonymity is a shield to me but it also hinders growth via retrospection and observation alike.

I am interested in learning what makes people tick. In learning what have made them grow, what had shaped them. I am interested in knowing their experiences their various connotative understanding of their world. It would be a privilege, if a friend had let me into their world, especially if the motive is known to be just plain curiousity. I deny people that privilege to do so on myself because I keep myself relatively anonymous. I ended up denying even myself to have that privilege of seeing how myself grown as a person through my experience too. I suppose my mind has done a much too thorough job of shielding myself from my own stupidity.

I believe it's this distance that gifts me my rationality. However is it also this distance that well, distances me from an actual relationship. Let's just hope it's not too late to learn.


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